I was honest to you.
I have loved you with every bit of me.
Every fiber of me.
I opened up to you wholeheartedly.
I respected you, so much na kahit nasasaktan mo ko i couldn't bring myself to hate you cause i thought you would never mean to hurt me.

Pinagtatanggol kita kasi akala ko kilala kita. And i thought you were always honest with me.
but now im wondering, do i even know you at all.
Everything i believe in about you just crashed.
Everything i have in us just gone.
EVERYTHING.

Every wonderful things to remember is gone.
It's like some part of my past was erased. Stolen.
Some things in my memory clearly didn't happen.
because all of them are lies.
And it hurts so much being played like that.

I'm hurt, insulted and offended.

You were always the one who made me feel like shit.
ALWAYS.

and now, i can bluntly say, I HATE YOU.

Forget the distance

I may be miles away from you, but it doesn't mean that the distance will make me stop loving you.
I know that being away is difficult, but i'll try my best and everything to make things work for us.
Don't mind the distance. Forget about the miles.

One day we will see each other. It may be sooner, may be later.
I don't mind.
As long as you keep holding on, I will too.
And if that day comes I know it will be the day that we both won't forget.

For now, I'm gonna endure missing you.

This is kinda pissing, right?

I mean, ok, someone has a crush on me, so what?

Why the heck do you need to tell me?

and why the heck do you need to repeat it again?

Do you think i'd go crazy and gaga with your information?

Should I ask for his name and his number?

Nah, I'm not a bit interested.

And it’s kinda hard when you are hurting and you can’t just tell the other person because you might hurt that person too.

It’s not easy when you pretend everyday that you are fine and you’re happy but in reality, it hurts all the way.

This is what I fear the most. Opening up to other person, making that person see and get inside of you, giving access to your vulnerability and then the next thing you’ll know you’re hurting like crap.

I think in every relationship, there will never be an equality.
The other person will always be the one who loves more, cares more and gives a whole lot of effort than the other person.


And in the end, that person gets hurt the most.
It sucks because it's not fair.

Feels like when the other person is hurt, the other one only have the slightest idea of how you feel.

What sucks even more is when the other doesn't have any idea at all.

So when you go into a relationship,  even if you're the one who loves more, make sure that the person you'll give your heart to is worthy of every piece of love, tears and pain you are gonna shed.
Make sure that in the end, It is all worth it. 

Survive

There will come a time in our lives when we will get our heart broken.
We will be hurt.
We will be in chronic pain and in agony.

It will leave us with no option but to move on.
We have to, by all possible means accept the bitter truth that the person we once adore, we once love with all our heart, can no longer be a part of our being.
No longer a part of our lives... of our future.

At first, it can be draining physically and mentally.
It's as if nothing will ever be right anymore.
we will all feel like we can’t live without that person, but eventually you will.
You will see that you will.
You'll get better and that's inevitable.

You just have to believe in yourself and you have to trust yourself.
You will end up as a stronger person in the end. Just follow the basic rule.

SURVIVE.
Even if it is difficult.
At the end of it, you can smile like nothing really happened.

Live like a Boss

I dress like a lady, 

walk like a princess, 

talk like a man, 

think like a soldier,

laugh like a sailor, 

and live like a boss.

That’s just how I am. 

Random. 

People always think they know me,

 but they always end up either surprised or disappointed. 

That’s why I never like expectations. 

People tend to overate you. 

Expect more from you and when you disappoint them,

 they’ll slap in your face how much you’ve let them down.

And they'll slap you hard.

So instead of living with people’s expectation, 

live your life the way you should live it. 

As long as it is in accordance of God’s will, just go. 

Live it to the fullest. 

Don’t mind them. Don’t let them control you.

Dress like a lady, in modest. 

Walk like a princess, you are beautiful, don't let others tell you differently. 

Talk like a man. make them listen with your intelligence and charm. 

Think like a soldier, shrewd and clever. 

Laugh like a sailor, as loud as you can, as happy as you can be.

Live like a boss, you are your own boss. you have a gift of freedom, use it accordingly.