Nonsensical Pain

I'm not fine. 

I'm hurt and bruised, not physically of course 

but I think hurting physically is better than to what I feel right now. 

I need to make myself feel better.

I need to nurse my heart back to health... back to usefulness. 

My tearduct is like an open dam, I feel like crying all the time.

You know i've never liked nonsensical pain. 

I dont like feeling miserable and pathetic. 

Damn that person who made me feel this shit.

Why do I have to feel crap over the loss of something I never had?