The perks of holding back

I used to hold back my feelings to someone before, 

at the end i got hurt because I refused to be honest with what i really feel.

So I told myself that the next time I fall inlove, I'm not gonna withhold anymore,

I wont suppress what i really feel.

And then, the second chance came.

I did what I had to do. 

I became honest to what's really inside me. 

But at the end, it hurts more than it hurts the first time.

It freaking hurts that I'd do anything, I'd move the heaven and earth if i can

just so i wont have to go through that phase again.

It hurts because it felt like nothing's left for me anymore.

I feel empty because I gave all of me.

I've open up to someone but in the end, a betrayal took place.