Oblivion

And it's hard when you want to smile,

you want to laugh,

you want the people around you see that you are happy,

but you just cant...

'coz the sadness inside you is overwhelming,

it consumes your whole being.

Everything triggers your tearduct.

Nothing in particular... just, everything.

The tweeting of birds, crying of baby, laughter of the person beside you, the sound of your own keyboard, the insect, the paper, the wall, the door, the floor... everything!

Everything spells sadness.

You are a zombie.

You walk, you talk, you work, but lifeless.

And it's hard to be at this state.

You want to scream for help but you know no one can ever save you.

Because the person who can, is the reason why you're currently drowning in misery.

Rubber Band

I did what I had to do.

I did some hardest decision that has only one result, PAIN.

I'm letting go.

I'm moving on.

I can only take this much.

I'm not gonna pull and stretch the rubber farther.

I'm frightened that if I do so, the rubber might break and I may not be able to glue it back.

So Im'ma have to stop here.

I'd rather be hurt as early as now than later.

I'm not gonna sit here and endure the pain 

just to get my heart still ripped out in the end.

I'm not sure if what I did was done out of selfishness...

but I do know that what I did was the right thing.

How did I know?

I just did.

Letting Go Like a Boss

When a person wants to walk out from your life, 

you gotta let them go. 

Do not force them into staying with you. 

Never ask them to love you again. 

Stop calling them or expect them to return your calls.

Don’t ask them to continuously care about you, 

because if they still want you and cared about you 

they wouldn’t be going anywhere else in the first place. 

They won’t even think of cutting you out of their lives. 

So yes, atleast save yourself from their rejection for the second time. 

From that very moment they walk out from you, 

shed that first burst of tears, 

cause it’s ok to be hurt, to feel the pain, 

it’ll make you stronger; but hold that second coming.

You shouldn’t be crying for the same reason the second time. 

That person is not worth it, cause if he really does, you won’t be crying at all.

Everything is untold

I want to tell you everything about me.
Everything that you needed to know. 
I want to tell you how my world stops whenever I'm talking to you
and how my heart sings in joy whenever you say something sweet.
I really wanted to tell you everything but there's just no way to, is there?

C'est la vie

Have you ever been in a situation wherein you thought that the thing you really really want was just within your reach?
That you just have to stretch your hand a little far so you can have it.

But turns out that it was just playing with you all along.
You feel cheated because this thing that you really really want,
in reality is far beyond your reach.

You can never have it at any cost.
And it sucks. And it hurts.
But you can't do anything about it.
Not even crying, can make you feel any better.
In fact it just gotten worse every second. Every minute.

Yes, C'est la vie.

Love Hurts

Love
 I've got my own description with this word,

and it's a little different to the way others see it.

Love is beautiful, yes i concur with that idea, but when this

thing starts to hurt, the first thing we wanna do is quit...

quit before it gets worse.

to run away from it as far as possible.

to hide from the harm and the damage it may further cause...

to your heart...

to your being...

to the whole you.

Because you know that if you do not protect your self from this pain,

you will never be the same again.

Everything won't be back to the way it was before.

You'll be in misery.

But you also know that if you run away, the effect is the same.

You also won't be fine.

Thing aren't also going to be the same again.

You'll also be in a complete despair.

In a deep sadness.

The wanting and longing will drive you into insanity.

Will cause you pain that you never knew exist.

It will reap your heart into pieces.

No, I'm not talking metaphorically here.

You know that the pain it'll bring will shred your heart into tiny pigments.

You won't gonna bleed but you can't escape from the excruciating pain it'll bring.

So you see, you really don't have any option in love.

Either you deal with the pain, or let the pain destroy you.

Secretly In Love

I always want a secret relationship.
A private and not a public one where everyone has to know.
Only few is informed. Only those that matter.
And when people ask me, I will not say that I am single nor will I deny the fact that I’m taken.
Not everyone has to know with who and what goes on between us. 
I think the quietest relationships last the longest just because the number one thing that ruins relationships are other people with their big mouth and their irrelevant opinions.